Sunday, May 24, 2009

Finishing up the semester...

So, it's that time of the semester for all of those Smolny traditions that come at the end.

On Friday we had our Awards Ceremony. Much less exciting for those of us who attended last semester, as we all know what the "award" will be (a packet of Soviet propaganda posters, apparently the same "award" they have been giving out since at least Lauren was on the program). But I was called the "dependable Norwegian photographer" and given the packet of "SOVIET MEANS EXCELLENT" advertising posters. We ate chicken and greasy potatoes and that trademark 3rd floor café salad and had Choco-Pies and packaged ice cream for dessert and I felt nostalgic thinking of the summer program and last semester and that this would be the last time I'd be graced with this if not super delicious, at least filling and memorable kind of Smolny meal. Anyway, I, of course, once again got roped into helping organize the end of semester gifts for the teachers, and Katy Lafen and I handed out 3 roses to each of the 6 RSL teachers and clusters of 3 zinnia-like flowers for the 2 advisers and I gave a mini thank-you speech in broken Russian/English because I got confused about which language I should say it in....

On Saturday we had our last official excursion (only one of the few I actually went on this semester) to the Piskaryovskoye Memorial Cemetery outside of the city, where all of the victims of the Siege of Leningrad are buried. The place is highly groomed and green, looks like the National Mall or something out of D.C., and is very somber in the fact it is mostly mass graves of the 1.5 million people who died during the 900 day siege. It was peaceful, though the recording of Pachabel's Canon which they had playing through speakers tied up on poles throughout the cemetery felt vaguely tacky to me. Otherwise it was somber and calm and peaceful and sad and beautiful and seemed fitting. 

As for today, we had our end of semester dinner, though unlike the chinese food shenanigans of last semester, we had our dinner of Stolle pies on a boat, just like we did at the end of the summer program. It was cloudier than the summer program, and due to a lot of recent rain the water levels were so high we couldn't go up on the deck except for when we were out on the open water of the Neva. The food was delicious though, and Katy and I handed out the remaining gifts for the tutors (flowers), Elena & Yulia (flowers and a collage Cathy put together of photos from the semester) and Bryan (a travel kit of tanning oil and such for his vacation to Israel), which seemed to be successful... Also, perhaps the most key moment of the boat festivities was when all of the 9 students plus Bryan who swam in the ice back in March posed for a group photograph in Speedos and bikinis that Louis, Bryan & I put together. We stenciled "SMOLNY INSTITUTE" on the butts in Cyrillic, and then below, on the Speedos we stenciled "МОРЖ" ("morzh") meaning walrus and on the bikinis, "МОРЖИХА" ("morzhukha") meaning a she-walrus, as that's what ice swimmers are called in Russian. Anyway, these photos were too good for you to have to wait until August to see:


*NOTE: Vlad got a clear Speedo we made out of plastic as when he went swimming originally he went in nude, so we figured it was more of a symbolic thing for him....

After the boat trip, Louis and I went for a walk through Mikhailovsky Sad in an out-of-the-way-way to the bus stop, and Dad, just as you thought, all the flowers were finally in bloom. There were violets and lupins and those weird drippy yellow flowers you were so excited about.... the grass was green and lush and the 8PM sunlight was just perfect.

Anyway, the semester really seems over now. Next week everyone is kind of off doing their own thing. Louis and I are taking off again on one more "spontaneous" trip out of the country. This time we tried to plan more, and were all set on trying to go up to Murmansk and see the Northern part of Norway, but traveling in that area ended up being a tad too difficult and expensive and we didn't have enough time, so we, spontaneously, decided today to hit up the Scandinavian capitals (repeat of the NORTHERN CAPITALS TOUR '05 with N&P and Mom) next week instead. We leave tomorrow night on a bus for Helsinki, and I'll post "ALIVE IN _______" updates when I can.

Until then, self portraits are up-to-date again.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Very small photo update:

Self portraits are updated through the 15th and in the spring digital section I have photos up from some wanderings around St. Petersburg before the Moscow trip....

But I have some unfortunate news.

Well, not really. Nothing tragic happened. I didn't lose any photos, but it looks like I was an idiot (or just really distracted, I was doing all this during the insane two days after getting back from Moscow and before mom & dad arrived when I was trying to get the pictures all done for Bard) and after I sorted through and straightened and rotated and edited all of the photos from Moscow, I forgot to save about half of them (375 or so) into my final Moscow pictures folder. No, this does not mean I do not have photos from that portion of the Moscow trip -- they are all still there in my back up folders where I just copy all the photos straight from my camera -- it just means that I have to go back through and sort and straighten and rotate and edit them all over again before I can upload the Moscow photos. Either I forgot to save them or my external hard drive is some how getting fucked up when I use it at school and such, but either way, it means I have more work than I thought before I can upload the photos.

And so here is what I have decided....

After feeling really dejected and frustrated about this, behind on all of my photos, barely with time and the means to upload them at all, let alone go back and re-do work I already did, and now with even more and more pictures being taken every day and not having taken those off my memory cards and editing and sorting and rotating and straightening them too..... I've decided that my "travel period" starts NOW.

I'm sorry if you're all disappointed, but I don't want to spend my last three weeks here before Meri and I embark on our journey, sitting at Smolny on the computer uploading photos or borrowing Lauren or Louis's computer late at night to edit and sort photos for hours and not sleeping. I want to just enjoy my time here, take a lot of pictures, accumulate a huge fucking collection of them, and then when I am back at home in August, sitting around, exhausted, kind of dejected, I can go through and sort them all with enthusiasm, reliving all that shit when it will be fun for me to do it instead of an exhausting, overwhelming chore like it is right now.

So, basically, this is the end of photo updates until I am home in August. The only thing I am going to keep up on (or at least try to) will be my self portrait project as I am still hoping to do the second part of my 365 DAYS SHOW during the end of the week before Meri arrives (June 8th). But that's only one photo a day. That's not too bad. And maybe every now and then if I have a second I'll pull a couple of my key favorites from a photo-ing session on here to go with an entry.

Otherwise, suck it up and let me enjoy my last little bit of time here without stress or guilt.

Feel free to email comments, complaints, questions, concerns to my gmail.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Out of touch....

.... but not so much that I would forget my big sister's 32nd birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SARA!!!

I hope you're having fun today!




Some general updates:

Even if I did have a computer at home I probably wouldn't be updating much anyway because this week is sheer insanity..... four RSL exams, finishing my final video for my 16mm film class, trying like hell to finish my artist book, other random end-of-the-year projects and gifts, of course ending up help coordinating buying the flowers for the RSL teachers..... ahhhhh shoot me. Though I do feel accomplished because yesterday I did perhaps the hardest thing I have done all year in Russia -- I spent just under 3 hours at the train ticket kassa near Kazanskii Sobor buying 18, yes, that is right, 18 train tickets. Somehow I did not fuck up buying 16 tickets for me and Meri to get all the way from St. Petersbug to Ulaanbaatar in Mongolia (with stops along the way, clearly) and then 2 more tickets for me and Louis to go up north, to above the Arctic Circle, to check out Murmansk and the very tip of Northern Norway next week after classes end. It was stressful, there was fights between Russians about the order of the lines, I made the strategic decision to wait at one of the closed kassas that was on lunch break an hour and until she reopened so I would be the first in line, and then even so it took 35 minutes for her to book 16 of the 18 tickets (I bought the 2 international ones from Ulan-Udye into Mongolia first, upstairs at the international kassa). In the end though, I did it, my hands were shaking at the end from exhaustion and stress and nerves (that I would somehow fuck it up) and also significantly low blood sugar and I am DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE with that train kassa, possibly forever, which is a relief, but which also makes me kind of nostalgic and sad. There are a lot of things lately that I am both glad to be done with and still sad they are ending..... I guess that is how life here goes.......

Friday, May 15, 2009

My last day of RSL classes. Forever.

And it totally snuck up on me, and it hasn't even sunk in yet. I have RSL exams next week. This is so weird. The end of the semester is coming so fast it is out of control. We had our last grammar class today with Ludmilia Petrovna, and she gave a touching little speech at the end about how we were so nice and sounded like we were Latvian when we spoke Russian (a compliment) and then she almost started crying and I thought I was going to cry and..... so the semester is ending.

Yet, the weather here is clearly trying to fuck with my head and confuse me further. All of that springy nonesense I wrote about in the Moscow entry is gone -- it was +1/+2 degrees C this morning and there is a good chance it is going to snow this afternoon.

ALWAYS KEEPING ME ON MY TOES, PETERSBURG!

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Actually,

I got more done than I thought I would.

FILM SECTION UPDATED.

Excuses, excuses.

So when the parents left bright and early at 6AM on Tuesday morning, they took my computer with them (for travel purposes). I am currently using one of those "germy" computers at Smolny to update these things here, but be aware that now my updates will be even more infrequent, on both the blog and the photo site. I am severely behind on updating my photos -- my apologies -- I have photos from Moscow still to put up, some others from brochure shoots and stuff, and then all the photos from when my parents are here....

I guess I am going to have to get used to being generally behind on photo updating until August, and I am finally home and can catch up on everything from the end of Russia, traveling with Meri, etc, etc, etc, etc, etc.......................

But the self portraits are up-to-date at least. Sort of. Well, up to the 11th. Eh, I'm trying.

About the parents' visit:

I'll let them tell you all about it, but all I am going to say is this:

Clearly we had fun, maybe some of us more than others.

About Moscow in May:

It's really fucking nice. Don't listen to anyone who might tell you it will be vastly colder than St. Petersburg and you should definitely bring your winter coats and boots and fleece-lined pants. No, don't listen to that person. It will beautiful and sunny and everyone on the program will come away a little tanner and a little pinker than they started off....

Moscow in May, being slightly further South than St. Petersburg, was also fully and completely in spring. There was lots of lying on green (!!!) grass in the sun (!!!), with trees in full bloom and budding all over the place. This also, of course, means that my allergies were out of control the whole time. On the train ride back to Petersburg on Sunday night, my left eye was so red people on the program tried starting rumors that I actually had pink eye. And, of course, it appears that spring came in St. Petersburg during the weekend we were away, because as soon as we were back it seemed there was pollen all over Petersburg as well. Luckily, there are fewer trees in St. Petersburg, so my sneezing fits are significantly less, though the drippy nose is a constant. Spring is definitely, finally, sort of, arrived in Russia -- now it's not just sunny but warm warm warm warm WARM as well, I sweated more in Moscow this weekend than I did all summer in St. Petersburg -- it gives me hope that summer will eventually come back too. I especially had hope when I saw that the beer garden where Adams and I passed so much time this summer was finally back installed outside of the metro. My life is coming full circle, yes it is.

So. Moscow. We did a lot. Here's a summary of my activies that I particularly enjoyed:

NOVODEVICHY CEMETERY:
This is the cemetery behind the Novodevichy Monastery where we went last semester. Emma and I ditched the monastery excursion briefly last semester and wandered through the cemetery, but it was pouring rain about about 10 minutes before the place closed so we didn't spend much time there. So I made a point to make the cemetery the first thing I did when back in Moscow. It's a really beautiful place, much like Pere Lachaise Cemetery in Paris that I loved so much, and, like that cemetery, is chock full of famous Russians who are buried there. I saw the graves of Chekov, Bulgakov, Gogol, Mayakovsky, Shostakovich, Yeltsin, Eisenstein and Nikulin. And, of course, as I love old cemeteries and this one was particularly gorgeous with moss and wild flowers and cobblestones, I shot a roll and a half and a shit-ton of digital pictures there. To be up, eventually, on my site.

SPARROW HILLS:
Really cool place in Moscow, the highest point in the city with great views of everything. I went with Zach and Louis and we wandered up the hill through the park which was so clean and pristine it could have been Berlin. Any parks like that in St. Petersburg would have had at least a couple beer bottles. Not only that, in the park they had trash cans with RECYCLING sections. They probably just throw it all out together anyway, but it blew my mind. Where was I?? Germany?? And then, at the top of the hill, is where the Moscow State University is located -- a huegly Soviet, a hugely huge, a hugely intimidating building. It is an enormous city university, of course, but unlike most other city universities with buildings spread out all over the place, all of the departments are in this one GIANT structure. We wondered how long it took you to get to class once you enter the building itself...

THE CIRCUS AGAIN:
So, we went back to the circus. Not as good this time on a whole, in my opinion. No beautiful trained white dogs, but the cats were even better this time. They didn't mess up jumping into their buckets or anything. There was one act in particular which (sadly?) didn't even phase me as I have been here for so long, but which offended a large number of fellow program participants.... I managed to take some pictures, but in short it involved a man dressed up as a rabbi and several chimps wearing yarmulkes acting out a Jewish wedding. And then the chimps dressing up further in different costumes acting out stereotypes of various other countries of the world. Oh, what to do. If I had gone to this when I was twelve or thirteen, those days when I would get on my soap box and lceture members of my family, I would have been outraged. But after this year of hearing some of the most racist comments of my life, I've learned that you just have to let these things roll off you. There really isn't anything else you can do.

OLD TRETYAKOV GALLERY:
I went back to the Old Tretyakov. Nothing really different this time, just went back to check on some of my favorite paintings....

PUSHKIN ART GALLERY:
This gallery is Moscow's equivilant of the Hermitage -- all of the city's Western and European art collection. We had a tour, but of course I skipped out after the first ten minutes to wander on my own. I hate those tourguides that get upset if you're not paying 100% attention to them and looking at them at all times, when all I wanted was to come to the museum to look at the PAINTINGS of course.... Anyway, I was surprised by how much I loved this gallery. The first floor wasn't very interesting to me, all that dark, still-life, 19th century portrait stuff... But the bright explosion of the second and third floors made me so happy. They have a huge collection of Matisse, including that great goldfish painting of his. If you like French impressionist stuff, this is the place to go in Moscow. It's almost an entire museum of just the 3rd floor of the Hermitage.

THE ARBAT:
I never made it to the Arbat last time, but I wandered on it this time. It's not that exciting if you're not into shopping, it's just a big pedestrian street, but there were a lot of street musicians and dancers and a lot going on. Also the only two Starbucks in Russia are both located on the Arbat, and even though in the U.S. I rarely go to Starbucks (unless I'm with the Erins in Milton) it was a homesickness comfort kind of thing to get an iced mocha and sit out on the street drinking it. I also loved looking at all the graffiti walls, including the huge wall of graffiti of the band Kino, that was in Malina's facebook profile picture for so long.

PATRIARCH'S POND:
The pond where the opening chapter of Master & Margarita takes place! I meant to go there last time but never got a chance, so I went this time and was thrilled. Louis went with me and we went right at sunset and it was eerie and oddly peaceful, the absolute exact way I pictured it when reading the book. It's also generally just a nice little park, full of baby strollers and dogs, much like some park on the Upper East Side in Manhattan. But you're in Russia. Weird.

RED SQUARE AT NIGHT, FINALLY:
Yeah. I made it to Red Square at night finally. This time it wasn't closed for a Nashi demonstration the next day. It's beautiful as hell, that's all I can really say about that. Much better up close than far away from behind a fence.

KOLOMENSKOE MONASTERY & PARK:
We had a big excursion out to the bottom of one of the metro lines to this huge huge park and monastery. The monastery itself was closed because of the holiday (the 1st of May), so we wandered the rest of the park, but it was gorgeous. I shot about 800 photos for the brochure just on this excursion, I went kind of nuts. Some members of the program were even inspired to go swimming in the dirty Moscow River. As for our guide, it was the same quirky man from last semester, and I think at one point he started just making up stuff to tell us. He told us at one point that the ravine we were walking through was famous for its teleporting tendencies. Good to know.

NEW TRETYAKOV GALLERY:
This might just be my favorite museum in the world. I wish, wish, wish I had had more time there, and whether Meri likes it or not I am dragging her back there in June. Take the Benois Wing of the Russian Museum, my favorite part, and make an entire museum of it and you get the New Tretyakov. It is all of the 20th century Russian art, all of the avant-garde that I love from the beginning of the 1900s, a whole fucking museum of it. Not only that, with all the Filonov and Goncharova and Altman and Kandinsky that I love, but they also had ALL of the Rodchenko photographs that I wrote my research paper on last spring for my history of photo class at Wellesley. I swooned on site. Really. There were witnesses.

Over all, my feelings about Moscow are still weird and mixed. Last time I was sick of it after the weekend and was positive that I preferred St. Petersburg to Moscow, but this trip Moscow grew on me.... I mean, Moscow is bizarre to me because I frequently forget that I am in Russia when I am there. It is such a typical, big, clean, global, not Western but international kind of city now, it's easy to feel like you could be in New York or London or wherever... St. Petersburg, despite supposedly being "less Russian" than Moscow and "more European" seems to have more of a Russian vibe, in terms of my interactions with people. More weird, random things happen to me in St. Petersburg, in Moscow people dress more normally and seem calmer and, in some ways, duller. More put together. Bryan once said that St. Petersburg is more of a provincial Russian city in disguise as a bigger city. I think that's true in terms of the general atmosphere of the cities, definitely. St. Petersburg is just kind of nuts, and while it was a good break from that craziness, I must admit I missed it. The consist factor in both of my trips to Moscow though was a general feeling of being overwhelmed, there being just TOO MANY THINGS that I want to do in that city, so in a 2 or 3 day trip, why even bother to try.... you really need to live in Moscow to get to know it at all or see much of anything, and last time I was there I was certain it was a place I could never really want to live in, but now I'm not so sure. It certainly grew on me during this trip, and made me think more and more about doing the Wellesley Wintersession program there next January.... WE'LL SEE.

I'm glad I get to go back to Moscow one more time though before leaving Russia, with Meri when she comes. It will be the first stop on our journey.

Found by Malina Dumas:


Nothing more needs to be said.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Wait! Timati! The coolest hip-hop artist ever!

How did I not know he was Russian????

Ahhh!!!

TIMATAI, who recently collaborated with the one, the only, Snoop Dogg, on the below video, was born and now lives in Moscow....?? His dad is a Tartar??



THE COOLNESS FACTOR TRIPLES BY A MILLION.

From back in St. Petersburg, with love....

Happy 10th Birthday,
Gwendolyn Anastasia!


Oh, how I miss that little face:
photo credit: JMH


Of course the one year I remember her birthday, I am in Russia. Oh well.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

From Moscow, with love....

HAPPY 50TH BIRTHDAY,
KAREN ANDERSEN BARTELS!


CELEBRATE IN STYLE, AND THEN WE WILL CELEBRATE FURTHER NEXT WEEK WHEN YOU ARE IN PETERSBURG!!!



love, e.b.